Sunday, May 22, 2016

Let's talk ACOMAF - A Court of ME (wanting more) and FALLING (in love) + SPN GIF's

What am I doing here? That's basically what I ask myself every day since I finished ACOMAF - everything seems so out of place and as long as it doesn't have to do with Rhysand, Feyre and their companions, it just feels wrong. They've taken over my life, my thoughts and dreams and since I obviously have SO MUCH to say about this glorious book ... I thought I'd share it with YOU - no discussion on a certain topic, friends, but instead we just TALK about all things ACOMAF! Heck yes!

Before you start reading my nonesense, please bear in mind that there'll be MAJOR SPOILERS - really, I'm going into a loooot of detail and don't want you to read this if you haven't finished the book yet. Come back later (please do that!) or check out my spoiler-free review but stop right here if you're not done with it. DANGEROUS GROUNDS AHEAD, I WARNED YOU!

I would love to show you the original post I made while reading ACOMAF but it's so unorganzied and contains loads of capslock (you'll find that here too, don't worry) and is in general super hard and much to read - it's kinda like a recap of the book, haha.

Tamlin - High Lord of the Spring Court

Let’s start off with Tamlin, since he’s a big part in the first part of the book. There’s no easy way around it, so I’m just saying it, okay? I HATE HIM. He became such a twisted and crazy person in ACOMAF and I really, really disliked that. Maybe that was SJM's fault for making him this way but something was bound to change ... after Amarantha and everything that has happened, well.

He was weird and annoyed me right from the beginning – the things he said to Feyre were absolutely horrible … being his wife made her a “lesser being”, as it seems? He laughed at her when she asked him about the High Ladies of a Court. Like what?! Also, how he treated her … that’s NOT OKAY. Locking her up? Dressing her like she’s a doll that he can show around? He didn’t even care about her well-being! She was slowly withering away and HE DID NOT CARE. Of course, he had his own problems and maybe I understand a teeny tiny little bit where this obsession and protection is coming from … but he claimed to love her so much and yet he didn’t realize how bad she feels? GOD, TAMLIN!! He didn’t treat her as his equal and for never wanting to be a High Lord he now seemed to be okay with it. Feyre just wanted to help him - although she was broken and hallow as well - and he never listened. Never wanted to burden her with any of his/his Court's dealings ... I just didn’t like him - especially not after what we found out from Rhysand. That he was part of killing his family and all that. He's just, ugh no!

"When you spend so long trapped in darkness, you find that the darkness begins to stare back."

And the ending?! HE MADE A BARGAIN WITH THE KING. To get Feyre back, even though she sent him a letter, telling him to NOT look for her and that she willingly left his Court to stay with Rhysand – he NEVER accepted anything she said. He sees her as a thropy, a subject he owns, that he possesses and even went so far as to SELL HER to work with the King once he retrieved her – what husband would do this to you?! If he claims to love you?!? HOW COULD HE! I didn’t believe how much of an asshole he could be but … well, there it is. All the things he did rubbed me the wrong way, he's just such a unhealthy person for Feyre and I really hope he either changes or that she kills him, hurts him really badly ... or just gets away from him. I don't know.

Lucien - Emissary of the Spring Court

I was also very disappointed in Lucien – I REALLY liked him in the first book. He seemed to be a great character and I was craving more of his friendship with Feyre … however that all changed. You could still see that he cares about her and that it hurt him how bad Feyre felt but obviously never enough to actually do something about it. He obeyed Tamlin and followed his every instruction, which made me like him less and less … too bad.

And then there’s this ridiculous revelation at the end. Feyre’s sisters, Nesta and Elain, were both turned into Fae and ALL OF A SUDDEN Lucien bonded with Elain – she’s now his Mate. Great. Just that I thought this was super weird and I’m honestly not sure what to think of it. I’m 100% certain SJM has had a reason for HIM being her mate (I wanted it to be Azriel although not relationship-wise, just friendship - makes sense to you?) but I don’t see it yet? He’ll have to work with Feyre to be able to ever see Elain again but it’ll prove difficult … he knows Feyre was lying at the end, when she sacrificed herself for Rhysand and her family, but he couldn’t do anything about it. I’m really curious to see where this is going – especially with their past and the friendship they had – maybe it’ll make Lucien realize that he and Tamlin had been wrong all along? I hope so.

Rhysand - High Lord of the Night Court

How about we talk about my favorite part for a while? RHYSAND. What I feel for this character is insane and honestly, I went a bit crazy reading this book - you can ask Maaike @ All These Lives if you don't believe me, she has a whole Twitter DM protocol of me going crazy and shouting in capslock at her - thanks again, lovely! I wouldn't have survived this without you, haha. Before I get into details as of why I love him so much, I want to mention that Warner (from the Shatter Me series) has been my favorite book-boyfriend for SUCH A LONG TIME - really, there was no one quite as amazing as he was ... that changed now. Rhysand claimed his throne and I'm sure he doesn't plan on giving it to someone else anytime soon. Fine by me because I LOVE HIM. WITH ALL MY HEART.

Rhysand's first appearance in the book was so him. He crashed Feyre's wedding with a purred "Hello, Feyre darling" and I INTERNALLY SCREAMED. It immediately brought a grin to my face because he was so cocky, arrogant but charming and I loved it. I really did. That was his facade and I would've still been all over him - am I weird?

"My friend through many dangers. My lover who had healed my broken and weary soul. My mate who had waited for me against all hope, despite all odds."

He seemed very different though - he is one of the most understanding and kind characters I've read about in a while and actually cared about Feyre. Sure, I haven't forgotten everything he did in the first book but I might have been a bit blinded anyway ... I already loved him so much in ACOTAR. Oh well, that's me choosing always those broken, mysterious and dark characters. He freed Feyre from Tamlin's prison and gave her everything she needed to become herself again ... slowly but surely. He helped her through this hard time and never pushed her into doing something but encouraged her to at least try - if she can't do it that's okay as well, he wouldn't judge her but instead support and accept her decision.

I loved the subtle hints he gave Feyre on how he feels - it always seemed like a joke but after you're finished and reflect back on everything Rhys said ... well, it makes perfect sense. He knew all along that Feyre was his Mate but never pushed it onto her ... he made her fall in love with him as a person. They were flirting, bickering and "fighting" again - their dynamic was just incredibly enjoyable to read. She never had this with Tamlin!

The notes they passed back and forth all the time - their own, secret language - made this so much sweeter and OH MY GOD. I have so many feels for these two, can you tell? I'M IN LOVE.

"Rhys still knelt, wings drooping across the white sheets, head bowed, his tattoos stark against his golden skin. A dark, fallen prince."

The first moment I was really scared and anxious was when Rhys had his nightmare, do you remember? The house itself was groaning and it was completely dark ... Feyre was trying to get through it to Rhys, to get him to listen to her. I WAS DYING. I really thought something bad had happened to him - you should've felt my heartbeat! I was feeling like a crazy person!

I hurt so much for Rhysand in that moment ... how can one be so good deep in his heart and be hated by so many? Sure, he's trying to hard to keep the not-caring, manipulative-High Lord facade but I think it's mostly to keep himself save and guarded. When he's with Feyre he shows his vulnerable side and she gets it ... she understands him, she knows the true Rhysand and loves him no matter what. OHHH BE STILL MY HEART, BE STILL.

Chapter 48 was my undoing. I was in full-on fangirl mode by then and really had trouble concentrating on something else that was NOT Rhysand and Feyre. Pathetic me, I know. The sexual tension was killing me and OH MAN, was I glad when things finally moved on and got ... hot and steamy. Like, REALLY hot and REALLY steamy. On Goodreads ACOMAF is categorized as YOUNG ADULT, well, I definitely wouldn't say that. Holy shit. *fans self*

All was good for a short while, too perfect even but I was happy and they were happy until ... things happened. Rhysand was shot by ash arrows and Feyre was frantic as she searched for him, not being able to connect through the bond they shared. I WAS SCARED AS HELL. I had tears in my eyes as she finally found him, almost dying, and didn't know what to do with myself. Nothing new here, right? I was CONSTANTLY dying throughout this book, haha.

"I love it when you look at me like that. "The purr in his voice heated my blood. "Like what?" "Like my power isn't something to run from. Like you see me." 

The story - the FULL story - that Rhysand told Feyre was so beautiful but heartbreaking at the same time. He told her about their mating bond and everything that had happened - he told her everything she wanted to know. Had to know. He endured SO MUCH during her time with Tamlin. But once again, this proves what an amazing character/man Rhysand actually is - he never pushed anything onto Feyre, never told her about the mating bond and let her live with Tamlin as long as she was happy/healthy but it destroyed him to see her withering away ... so he had to do something. He didn't want to and couldn't let her light fade away ... he wanted to make her feel alive again - which he did. Yes, he did terrible things but ... he did them for a reason. And it's not like it doesn't hurt him, like he's not remembering them or just forgetting them. He lives with it. Every freaking day of his immortal life. I HAVE SO MANY FEELS FOR RHYSAND. HE'S PERFECT AND YA'LL CAN SAY OTHERWISE BUT HE'S MY BAE AND HE DESERVES THE LOVE FEYRE GIVES HIM AND HE'S GOOD THE WAY HE IS.

Feyre - High Lady of the Night Court

Like I already mentioned, my love for Feyre only grew with this book. She's such a different character now - strong, passionate and protective of the ones she loves. I just love her a lot! There were so many interesting things we discovered about her new powers and everything else!

I really liked her abilities and was glad she started to train them ... so many different ones! The wind shield-thingy she used first to protect herself from Tamlin as he destroyed the study (seriously, dude?!), the water creatures ... winnowing and and and. SO MANY! And also the tracking "ability" - when they discovered this about her, I felt like she finally had a reason to keep going ... Rhysand made it clear that he/they need her and that only she can help make things better and I think that's what she needed. She always wanted to help, to not feel useless and weak.

"I was not a pet, not a doll, not an animal.
I was a survivor, and I was strong.
I would not be weak, or helpless again
I would not, could not be broken. Tamed."

Her relationships with Rhy's Inner Circle (don't worry, I'll get to them soon!) were amazing as well. She had an emotional moment with Cassian on the field as they trained and OH MAN, I HURT FOR HER. Killing those 2 faeries in the first book really damaged her but she realized that while it'll always be a part of her and will never not hurt ... it doesn't have to break her. She can and WILL learn to live with it but she'll never forget.

The ending was freaking brilliant but also broke my heart. First the bond that the king broke - I REALLY thought it was the mating bond ... they made this so real, so believable and I was full on crazy! I had to close the book and take deep, deep breaths (again, thanks to Maaike for telling me IMMEDIATELY that it was NOT the mating bond - otherwise I would've died) before I was able to continue. SO CRUEL, SARAH. SO CRUEL AND UNFAIR.

She's the High Lady of the Night Court now. I FREAKING LOVED THIS! Remember when I wrote Tamlin laughed at her for this thought? HA!!! Rhysand knows what's best. And now she's - most likely - taking down the Spring Court and Tamlin from within ... heck yes! I support it!

Rhysand's Inner Circle - Amren, Mor, Cassian & Azriel

I really like Rhysand's Inner Circle - his friends, his family - although I was very wary of Amren at first ... she seems a little strange and her being an ancient creature that no one really knows anything about is freaking creepy. She proved herself more than once though and now I love her. She's such a strong character and I'm so, so happy that they have her on their side. Also, the little bonding moment they had after escaping their watery grave (thanks water-wraiths, phew!) was great!

Mor became an amazing friend to Feyre. She's such a great character with a tragic background. My heart broke for her when we found out all the horrible things that had happened to her.

Cassian is a funny guy that I definitely would be interested in hanging out with ... and while I'm at it, who else can see him and Nesta becoming an actual thing? Maybe they're Mates?! I think they' fit great and want this to happen, so, so badly! BUT HIS WINGS. OH MY GOOOD!!! I couldn't believe it. No, no, no. Poor baby. :(

Azriel is probably one of the most interesting characters ... the shadowsinger gift he has makes me really curious and excited to find out more about him! He seems to be head over heels in love with Mor but never acted on his feelings ... neither did she. And as I mentioned above, I would've liked a mating bond between him and Elain - I don't know why, but they seemed to get along just fine. This could've been a great friendship, but please no more. He and Mor are perfectly fine.

Interesting side stories & bitchy queens

There's so much potential for future novella's and I WANT THEM ALL. I love these little side stories SJM put into the book and definitely want to read more about them. The Prison & the Bone Carver, for example, would make a great short story! All the trapped ancient creatures in there ... I'M SO CURIOUS! Everything seemed so mysterious and dark but kinda fascinating? I WANNA KNOW MORE!!!

The Weaver is another one I found sooooo good as well! She's blind and has hoarded loads of different objects from High Lords and other creatures over the years ... Feyre had to retrieve a ring of Rhysand's Mother and barely escaped ... the roof of her house was built of hair, there were bones and ugh, it was so disgusting. Also, a story about Amren would be nice as well!

And then we have some bitchy queens. I disliked them all immediately but at least ONE queen understood the situation and believed in what Rhys and the others showed them. I pretty much knew that they couldn't be trusted. What happened to Velaris was so sad and terrible ... I offically volunteer to kill them myself.


I have so much more to say but I think that's enough for now - I wanna hear YOUR thoughts! This book totally wrecked me and made me an emotional mess. I'm in love with the characters, the story and Sarah J. Maas' writing in general. She's brilliant! ACOMAF is definitely one of my alltime faves now.

What are YOUR thoughts on the book? Anything you can add? Do you agree/disagree with me? Did you feel as betrayed by Tamlin as Feyre and I? How deep is your love for Rhysand? DO you even love him?! Share your thoughts in the comments and also link me to your reviews - I wanna read them!!


  1. *FAINTS* Rhyyyyyysss. I need more reviews like this. I read it just as enthusiastically (read: jumping up and down my chair) now as I did the first time. All these thoughts I agree on, all this perfection. I need more of it. This is btw the first time I can see the Supernatural gifs and I LOVE THEM. It's hilarious really, how there is a spn gif for every possible situation. They fit perfectly. Great review, Yvonne! ♥

    1. RIGHT?! This show is perfect and I love all the gifs, haha. I'm so glad you're of the same opinion as me - I loooved our fangirling together! <3

  2. I literally finished this book a few minutes ago, and all I can say is that I'm in AGONY over how amazing it was. You hit every point perfectly! I'm in love with Rhysand, it's not funny. And how Feyre grew in this novel, and all the other characters! I can't even begin to comprehend how deep this book has affected me, and how I'll continue to reread it over and over again until the next book comes out. That moment with Feyre and Cassian was pure gold, and chapter 48 was absolutely everything!!!
    I absolutely love what you did with the title of this post :)
    Erika @ Books, Stars, and the Pages in Between

    1. Thanks so much, Erika! Cassian is an AMAZING character and I already can't wait to see/read more of him ... I really hope he's okay. *wipes away tears*

  3. I absolutely LOVED ACOMAF and your review covered all those feelings perfectly! Yes, yes, yes to all of them!
    I personally was never a big fan of Tamlin and even in ACOTAR I was more interested in the character of Rhys. And even though I still did not expect or predict that Tamlin's character would have evolved as it did, it did feel natural? Like, I don't think he behaved out of character at all or had a sudden personality switch.
    I was disappointed with Lucien though and I hope we get more of him in book 3 and he will realize his mistakes and try to fix his relationship with Feyre.
    Also, words can't express my love for Rhys. He is now my number one favorite male book character ever so I completely understand how he could have replaced Warner as your number one too :)
    This book just gave me a massive book hangover. I haven't been able to focus on any other books since finishing ACOMAF (and immediately re-reading it afterwards). And now I'm just listening to Sarah J. Maas's ACOMAF playlist on Spotify or browsing the web for fanart or reviews - it's crazy :) But I guess that's a sign that it was just a great book!

    1. SAME. I mean, I liked Tamlin at first but I never really shipped him so much with Feyre. Not like I did with Rhys and I was also immediately intrigued by him! ♥

      God, I know this feeling so well! I finished it over a week ago and haven't picked up another book yet ... it's just that nothing seems good enough right now, haha. :D

  4. Hallo liebe Yvonne,
    hach, ich hab mir endlich mal in Ruhe Deine Rezension durchgelesen (sorry, bin vorher nicht dazu gekommen, wir waren das ganze Wochenende unterwegs). ANYHOW .. you are sooo right!

    Tamlin: wenn man ehrlich ist, ein bissi hat man seinen Charakter schon in ACOTAR gesehen (we reagiert denn SO GAR NICHT, wenn die „große Liebe“ vor Amarantha kämpft und leidet. Aber das sehe ich auch erst jetzt, hinterher so, nachdem ich von ACOTAR genau jenen Teil in Under The Mountain noch einmal gelesen habe (nach ACOMAF). Unglaublich, wie er Feyre an der kurzen Leine hält!

    Lucien: den Plot Twist hinsichtlich ihm und Elaine finde ich auch etwas strange … aber sehen wir, was SJ Maas daraus macht.

    Rhysand: seufz. Schon verrückt, bei ACOTAR fand ich Tamlin noch so toll und schwups di wups isses Rhysand. Ziemlich scharfer Wechsel. Aber mit WARNER hat er mal nix gemeinsam! Ugh, no … but then again … Ich mochte die Shatter me Reihe nicht  Hahahaha.. and yes, Du triffst den Nagel auf den Kopf mit “hot & steamy” (ich musste so grinsen als ich das gelesen haben). Also jugendfrei ist was anderes – aber mei… ich finde SJ Maas hat den Spagat zwischen Kitsch und Erotik gut hinbekommen (okay, außer bei „considerable length“ -> da musste ich dann doch lauthals ob des Klischees lachen).

    Bye the way: ich liebe Deine GIFS!!

    As for Cassian: ich finde er und Nesta würden tatsächlich gut passen! Und ich hoffe sehr, dass seine Flügel wieder ganz in Ordnung kommen! Azriel und Elaine wäre in der Tat auch cooler gewesen – hahaha, oder Elaine und Tamlin!

    Ich hab keine Ahnung, wie man das Jahr Wartezeit überbrücken soll UND ich habe seit dem auch kein neues Buch anfangen können. Nein, ich höre gerade das HÖRBUCH zu ACOMAF noch einmal  … ich mag einfach nicht loslassen….

    Ganz viele liebe Grüße von Fangirl zu Fangirl

    1. Dafür brauchst du dich doch nicht entschuldigen, haha. Ich hoffe du hattest ein tolles Wochenende!! :D

      Ich muss mir ACOTAR auch definitiv nochmal durchlesen, aber du hast schon Recht. Gemerkt hat man es auf jeden Fall etwas.

      Der Plot Twist kam einfach so AUS DEM NICHTS (duh) - ich glaub das ist es auch was mich so sehr gestört hat ... ugh.

      Findest du nicht?! Also, so im Nachhinein gesehen ... stimmt, viel haben sie nicht gemeinsam, aber bevor man Rhys' komplette Story kannte, hatten sie ja immerhin EIN PAAR parallelen, oder? Haha. Wie auch immer, Rhys ist jetzt meine Nummer 1, wohoo!

      Cassian und Nesta könnten echt SUPER passen, jetzt vor allem auch wegen seinen Flügeln ... ich könnte mir vorstellen, dass sie ihm irgendwie hilft? Ach, was weiß ich! Bin auf jeden fall seeeehr gespannt!

      Danke, danke fürs Durchlesen! War ja doch ein langer Text, haha. :D ♥

  5. I'm so glad you shared this discussion because OMG I feel the same way!! I finished reading this book two weeks ago and I haven't been able to read anything since and EVERYTHING IS JUST TERRIBLE. A lot of people want to complain about the comparisons between Tamlin and Rhysand but they are so accurate!! I couldn't believe how much of a psycho Tamlin became! When he made a deal with the king I think my jaw hit the floor! And the thing is, THERE ARE ACTUALLY MEN LIKE THIS! But yes, I loved Rhysand so much! He was totally perfect and I'm so happy about it because I wasn't sure about him in book one! I think SJM has a serious skill because I didn't think she could make me feel so many emotions about so many characters in back to back books. Awesome post!!

    Tracy @ Cornerfolds

    1. I was so surprised and shocked by Tamlin's behaviour, to be honest ... I sat there reading and as this revelation with the king and their deal came up I was like "NO. HE CANNOT BE THIS MUCH OF AN ASSHOLE, NOOOPE." But yeah ... apparently he is. We'll see how he is in the third book! SJM is a queen!! I'm so in love with her writing and the characters and worlds - it's just great!

      Thanks so much for stopping by & reading everything, Tracy! ♥

  6. Hey Yvonne :-)!

    Wow, ich weiß eigentlich gar nicht, was ich da noch hinzufügen soll, denn du hast so ziemlich meine Gedanken aufgeschrieben! Also ich habe ja Rhys von Anfang an geliebt, daher war ich überglücklich mit diesen Wendungen :-D. Und da ich ACOTAR nicht gaaaanz so gut fand, hat mich ACOMAF echt umgehauen. Für mich ist es das wohl beste Buch überhaupt, was ich schon fast erschreckend fand, denn bisher war das für mich Queen of Shadows, genauso wie Rowan mein Book Boyfriend #1 war, das nun aber Rhys ist :-D...

    Ich LIEBE dieses Buch!!

    Ganz liebe Grüße

    1. Ahhh, freut mich!! Also im Vergleich zu ACOMAF is ACOTAR echt nicht so gut ... mir hat's zwar wirklich gefallen aber hier jetzt mit Rhys und dem Night Court und ALL DIESE TOLLEN SZENEN ... OH MEIN GOTT. ♥

      Um ehrlich zu sein ... Rowan hab ich noch garnicht kennengelernt, oops. Hab zuletzts The Assassin's Blade gelesen und muss jetzt bald mal mit Heir of Fire weitermachen, ahhh. Man hört ja auch nur seeehr gutes von Rowan ... bin also gespannt. :P

      Danke für's Vorbeischauen & Lesen des laaangen Textes! <3

  7. The fact that you put together a cohesive review astounds me because it's been a week and whenever I try and type mine out, I end up just laying on the floor in a permanent state of "I give up." ANYWAY, that ending nearly killed me. So much happened in such few pages that I'm still reeling. RHYSAND is always going to be High Lord of the book boyfriends now, and it is going to be a hard King to tumble bc OH MY GOSH I LOVE HIM (and I'm super happy that I was right about the end scene of ACOTAR being the bond snapping into place?).

    Also, Azriel is my favorite of the inner circle, other than Mor, and I swear if SJM kills him, my heart won't know what to do. (Azriel has also made it onto the book boyfriend list because he is a precious little angel, and I don't want anyone to hurt him.)

    -Monica @ Tomes Project

    1. Ohhh, trust me, if I would've tried to write the review AFTERWARDS I'd be dead as well. I took all these notes WHILE reading the book, haha.

      High Lord of the book boyfriends ... I LIKE THAT. And I can only agree. He's amazing and I love him with all my heart. ♥

      I actually like everyone of his Inner Cirlce and hope SO BADLY that they're all "okay" ... as okay as they can be, at least.

      Thanks for reading through all this, Monica!! *hugs* <3

  8. I’m reading this right now so I’m going to finish it and then come back and read your review, but I am so glad you enjoyed this so much! Thanks for sharing! ❤

    ~ Zoe @ Stories on Stage

    1. *eagerly waits for you to come back* I CAN'T WAIT TO HEAR WHAT YOU HAVE TO SAY!! :D

  9. I am currently reading this book! And I can't wait to come back and read your review! I will be back soon. I am sure in a day I should finish the book, since I can't keep it down even at work.


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